Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Thankfulness Abounds

Dedicated to this special holiday season...a post of thanksgiving!!!

I am thankful for big shoes that kill big spiders!!

I am thankful for coffee, with yummy creamer, to keep me from dosing off on my way to work!!

I am thankful for sick/vacation days.

I am thankful for warm blankets and fuzzy socks to keep me warm in this igloo that I call home!!

I am thankful that my husband has yet to complain about the lack of home cooked meals lately!!

I am thankful that, at this moment (and it will probably only last a moment longer), it is quiet in my house!!

I am, or used to be, thankful for cameras and computers and the instant gratification that comes with putting my pictures on my computer. Refer to my computer failure post!!

I am thankful for Tylenol and Motrin, mainly Motrin, that bring down my baby girl's 103.5 fever. I will be even more thankful if she can kick this virus before Thursday!!

I am thankful for ice cream and cookies which I am going to make right now!!

Happy Thanksgiving, la la la!!!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

"F" is for Frustration

I am currently experiencing parenting hardships. Ha, like that isn't a daily occurrence for every parent out there! But these days I find myself faced with new heights of frustration when it comes to parenting my toddler. First of all, let me say that it is so weird calling her a toddler. I mean, really, around here we still call her a baby. But I can't fool you all...she is a toddler. She will be 21 months in a couple of weeks. Which means she will be two in a couple of months. Ew, that's scary for me!

Back to my frustrations. Yes, my daughter is a delight. Really, she is! She walks around cute as can be, dancing and babbling along the way. She tries to blow her nose on her wipes as she is cleaning everything in sight. She does a great impression of a doggie! And she thinks she is hot stuff when she tells everyone good night. But lately she has shown me a new side of Presley. A side that is not so cute or delightful.

She screams, loudly, and a lot. She can't/doesn't talk. So, she cannot communicate to me what she wants when she wants something. So, she screams. And if I can't figure out what she is wanting she screams louder! Most of the time it is obvious what her desire is. But there are times that I give her all the options I can thing of and fail with each attempt. On these instances she gets extremely aggravated and, yeah, screams. If we are at the table eating she begins throwing her food and juice and whatever is within reach. If we are on the floor she kicks her feet and raises her voice. I think these are called "fits" or temper tantrums!

I know I am not the only parent to have ever gone through this type of thing. I am sure this is very common. So, what do I do? How do I remain calm when I my guesses at her needs are incorrect and the frustrations rise? Because let's be realistic folks, after a long day at work coming home to something like this does not make for the best case of patience. Again, I know this doesn't sound all that bad but realize this is technically my first attempt at the toddler age range. I don't want her to think that throwing fits will get he what she wants. On the other hand, I don't want her to have a need and me not be able to provide it. Wish me luck!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

It Only Took Like 8 Years

Well, I totally intended on having several new post done by now. But I am sad to announce the passing of my dear friend, Dell, the computer that is.
Presley and I were browsing the web the other night and when we left the room the computer missed us and started calling our name (or something like that). When we could not get it to stop the wretched noise we unplugged it and let is settle for a few.
Then when we attempted to resuscitate it it greeted us with a loud "pop". Not a good noise coming from an expensive electronic product.
Needless to say, my Internet time is limited. Therefore, my blog posting is non-existent. Sorry!
I assure you eventually I will get caught up.
Now, would anyone like to donate to the Beth-needs-a-new-computer-fund?!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Just Like That

In the blink of an eye your whole world could come crashing down on you. Or so it feels. You could have all the happiness one could ask for and lose it, just like that.

That is the way I feel about the life I have lost this year. The life of my unborn child. A girl. A girl whom, I believe, I will see one day in Heaven. I believe that God blesses us with the lives of children but they all truly belong to Him.

I did not plan to get pregnant this February. I had no intentions to have 2 children under the age of 2! My nerves couldn't take that. I had no more space in this starter home for another breathing, living soul. My time was consumed with the 2 children I had much less add another to the mix. My finances were beyond unstable. My plans were demolished though.

I got pregnant this February.

It took a while but I began to get excited. I shuffled all the ideas around in my head. I started thinking of options for names and color schemes and all that jazz. I began to like the idea of 2 kids under the age of 2. Crazy, I know! And just like that...

It was gone. I remember how cold the room was when my doctor walked in to tell me the news. I remember the stale look on her face. I remember her arms wrapped around me and her comforting words. Oh, and then the procedure. I felt so lifeless that day. And just like that...

She was gone.

She would've been here by now. October 30th to be exact. She would have a bedroom and a name. She may not have made it into this world but she sure has a place in my heart. God giveth and God taketh away and only He knows why. My experience will better someone else one day. My experience will speak through me. Maybe now, I don't know. I will forever be saddened by the baby that I have yet to meet. As I will forever be grateful for God's trust in me to handle a situation so unpleasant.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010