Pre, Pre-op

I thought I would take some time, mainly for my own benefit, to jot down my feelings and expectations for Monday's pre-op appointment with the surgeon.

First, let me say this.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Okay, I feel better now.

Let's begin. Yesterday I sent out an email to my family that simply asked for suggestions. I know that the appointment Monday is a time for us to ask questions and generally discuss the procedure. So, I need suggestions on what to ask. My brain is in total deep-fried mode and I have no clue what to ask. Maybe I should ask the surgeon what to ask!

Oh, insurance! I don't think I want to know how much of this my insurance is going to cover. Maybe it is a good thing we will be in the hospital for so long because we may not have a house after paying the hospital bills! You think they will let us shack up on the surgery recovery hall?

I am not expecting Presley to wow the docs with her big 3 ounce weight gain over the past few weeks!! I must admit I have not been to weigh her in 2 weeks so I do not for sure her weight as of today. I do know that it is nothing to write home about.

So, I sit here visualizing (aw, memories!!) Daniel and I pulling into the parking garage, unloading all the necessities for my baby girl, trekking across the sky bridge, piling into the elevator and watching as the 5 lights up, waiting patiently and listening intently for Presley, walking down the hallway, smiling at all the ooh's and ahh's for P head and well....that is about as far as my daydream goes. To put it simply I just don't know what to expect. Maybe that is the hardest part of this appointment. All the previous appointments have been routine. I knew each time what the next step would be, minus a few surprise chest x-rays and lab tests. This time is just different. What will happen after we walk in that room? What will the tone of the appointment be? Will this appointment leave me with any peace? I guess we will just have to wait and see.